Worried

I got a call from my dad about a half an hour ago checking to see if I knew where my cousin is. He was thinking that tonight was my night at Kazmos (which it's not, I do that on Wednesday nights) and maybe she had stopped by.
My cousin is out here from Iowa doing an internship and wrapping up school, so she's not too familiar with the Denver-area yet. They've tried to call her and haven't been able to reach her yet, which isn't necessarily anything to freak out about because her service sucks out here.

One of the biggest reasons I'm freaking out right now is because I had just woken up from a very weird, vivid nightmare about a minute or two before my dad called. Someone who I assumed to be myself was walking in darkened area, kind of like a cellar. At that point I was watching this person, almost hovering over their right shoulder. There were spiders and such (which if you know me, I hate them) but they were small so I continued walking. Then all the sudden a HUGE spider drops down from above... we're not talking a few inches big spider, more something the size of a small, fat cat. At this point my view switches from third-person to first-person and I'm thinking to myself not to freak out, it's just a big, rare mama spider and it's not going to hurt me. The thing rests on my neck and I try not to panic... or maybe I'm telling the other person not to panic.. it's not real clear. But almost immediately the spider begins to bite my neck and it's squealing... usually I don't really hear things in my dreams, but this one I did and I remember being startled by it. But this spider is squealing and digging into me or the person's neck and blood is gushing out, to the point that while I tell myself it's not bad, I'm gonna be okay... I can hear my blood splattering on the wall next to me and feel it running down my neck. I start trying to pull the spider off me, but it wouldn't come off and I get to the point of almost blacking out from blood loss when I'm snapped awake out of my dream. About a minute or so after I figure out where I am and everything is when my phone begins to ring.

It's the strangest, most vivid dream I've ever had. To the point that here it is, over 20 min later, and I can still remember it as if it were a real memory.

<We interrupt this entry for a cousin update: before I sat down to write this I called my dad back and asked him to let me know status because I wasn't getting back to sleep between a nightmare I had and knowing my cousin is missing... he just called to say she got back to his place and is okay>

At least now I know my dream wasn't relating to her. A lot of time it seems my nightmares are a premonition of real-life doom, sometimes relating to whatever bad happened or just indicative of something bad is going to happen. Yeah, I know, you think I'm full of shit and that's okay.

I'm still freaked out about the dream, not because I am that frightened by it... but more of WHY I had it. It's still so vivid in my mind, and I very rarely remember my dreams once I awaken. I do know that when I woke up, the same side of my throat that the spider was feeding on is now sore, like the gland might be starting to swell a bit. I know I couldn't have laid on it funny because I was laying on the opposite side of my body. Some people in my group of friends have come down with strep, hopefully this isn't the beginning of my own symptoms.

Anyway, I guess it's time to go back and try to sleep some more... so much for getting a good night's rest for once. I even tried going to bed early, ha. Just glad my cousin's okay, and sorry for the gory details of my dream. I'll probably wake up after getting more rest tonight and have forgotten about the dream and this entry.